Story of My Student - N -

Just call her N. She is one of my private student. She is on grade 8 now, in an international school in Jakarta. Yesterday should be the last day i teach her. But, unfortunately (or fortunately) i still have to teach her this semester.

I actually don't know how to teach her. Well, she is kind (i don't know how to explain her kindness), a bataknese too (same as me), rich (of course), and don't want to learn math. She always scream to her maid when she wants something, throws everything (including her Mac, iPhone, expensive books, and calculator), and wants a break every 15 minutes.

This is what i usually do when we have private teaching session: When i come to her house, she's still take a shower (or maybe she start take a shower when i come), and it waste 15 minutes. Her maid will give me a glass of mango juice when i'm waiting her. Then, i come to her bedroom. She will ask me if she can have 10 minutes to prepare herself. Then, she will start doing her homework, i will sit beside her and look at her homework, nodding if she does it well, talk to her if she gets wrong answer. Then, after 1 hour, she will say "It's done. Bye." or maybe just try to ask me to go home. 

Sometimes, i wonder if she hates me. I can't even tell her to study 1,5 hour. I sometimes don't understand the materials quickly and need time to understand it. I'm not from mathematics faculty, as her parents wish. So, i decided to tell my boss that i can't teach her anymore, i want her to have a better teacher who knows math very well and can fulfill her parents' expectation.

Yesterday, she told me that she gets B- on her test. For me and her, it is a good result, because she usually get C and she thinks this time she will get C again. She said to me that her friends who got B- too were very disappointed, but i said to her 'just don't listen to them'.

Then, in the end of lesson, i told her that next week she will be taught by another teacher from mathematics faculty. And you wanna know her reaction? She was so disappointed. When i said that it's her mother's choice to have a teacher from mathematics faculty, she said "but you're as good as them" and "I'll talk to my mom about it". 

So, i actually glad to hear that she likes me. Deep inside my heart, i worry if another teacher will treat her bad as the teachers before me. I worry if the new teacher can't listen to her, don't know what she needs. So that's why, i decided to keep teaching her. I hope the theories that i learned in psychology can help me to do my job.

But i'm worried about my psychological happiness for this semester..